oops, i've been gone for many months. sorry about that! i've been up to a lot, spending as much time with friends as possible and reading voraciously. i also applied to grad school and managed to get in, so i will be starting that in january. that will also keep me very busy for the next few years, which is a bummer but kind of necessary for me right now. updates to the site will probably be few and far between, but i plan to keep it up regardless as i have continued to get supportive (and nonsensical!) messages in the cbox, which is nice. i've been sick with COVID for the past week and have been miserable, but starting to feel better now. hope everyone else is doing well and survives the holiday season with their sanity intact!
first of all, happy pride month! i went to pride in my city and had a lot of fun, so i hope everyone else has had good experiences too. it's really powerful and beautiful to see the community get together to support each other and to celebrate queerness.
in other news, i went to see the Pixies live two nights ago! it was my first time ever seeing them but they were fantastic, just as i figured they would be. it was an outdoor show and it ended up raining pretty heavily but my partner and i stayed for the majority of the show anyway. it's also going to be my birthday this Sunday, i'll be turning 25. i'm not a huge fan of my birthday because it reminds me that i'm getting older every year (i know that's normal, but as i mentioned previously, aging gives me existential dread). i'm trying to just focus on being excited to celebrate with my friends and then i can stop thinking about it!
oopsies... haven't done anything with the site in over a month. i just got a little burnt out on coding i guess and i've just been focusing on other things. my therapist and i agree that i most likely have ADHD, which kinda helps give insight into why i pick up so many hobbies and hyperfixate on things then will totally abandon a project when another hyperfixation comes along. oh, and i got enough comments complaining about the scanlines on my pages that i decided to remove them. leave an "RIP" in the cbox if you miss them, lol.
while i was gone, i bleached my hair blonde and added some pink toner to it. i was going to re-dye it a darker color, but decided the blonde was cute and that i'll keep it for a bit. i also made a new friend! they're my new coworker and they are super kind, funny, and easy to talk to. i pushed myself out of my comfort zone and asked to hang out outside of work, and since then we have hung out several times and we even went to a trans rights rally/protest together. we also just work really well as a team at work, which makes everything so much easier. another thing i did since my last post was was read The Troop by Nick Cutter, which was fantastic and i will definitely be reviewing in the future. all the horror content i've been consuming kinda inspired me to write a poem (which i haven't done in ages) if you wanna check it out. it's probably not that good but you gotta strike while the iron is hot or whatever.
in a little less than a month i'll be turning 25, which is super weird because it feels like my high school graduation could have been yesterday when in reality it's been 7 years. i've earned a 4-year degree and worked 9 different jobs, but it feels like it all went by so fast. i just get really weird and existential around my birthday because time is such a fucky-wucky concept. :b